Before i start, i hereby wish everyone a very happy and merry xmas eve as well as merry xmas as it's already 1207am on my com (:
Today is one xmas eve that i won't forget. It has been a day filled with guilt, excitement, sadness, as well as relief and happiness :D I do not wish to say this in detail. In fact, to think about this whole matter will only make my brain crack more, after being in a super bad mood for like 8 hours? Ah, but that was considered passe. I'm just glad that this matter actually made me realise how insensitive, selfish and unfeeling i am sometimes. I wish to change that for this coming year! Hopefully I'm able to spend the remaining days of 2009 with my loved ones wisefully and may i not regret a minute on what i have done.
This guy who has been with me for like close to a year, exact time would be... 8 months 20 days, taught me how to care for others, how to love, think before i speak and as well as to cherish your loved ones more.
In fact, so many times that he did something small for me such as worrying about whether i will sleep well at night, though it may seem insignificant to someone, but it is of large importance to me. All these while, he kept quiet about it, i failed to realise too. How silly right?
Okay, there are many things he did for me, so shall list a few. Love is not just by saying. Sometimes its about thinking for the future like he did. By paving out the life he wants for us, to lead a smooth and comfortable life later on. Though i know its everyone's aim, but he tried very hard for it, cause he knew that the one suffering would not be him, but me if this were not to happen.
It is very important being honest with each other i guess, even if it means by saying something you have done that people find it bad in your face, or by helping you out with your diet by being strict with you and scold you when you start to stray away from your ideals. Strict doesn't mean that they are unhappy of how they feel you are. Sometimes, it is just to force you to be more disciplined since you cannot manage yourself well lol. So why not let others do that for you, am i right? Most of the time, its the close friends or loved ones that sacrifice most of their time and effort doing that, but by not saying, just to not make you feel bad. Ah yes, and then we think back and feel that they are just being mean to you.
With this, i shall end today's xmas post hopefully ^^ I don't know whether i will be back to write more or not. Because right now! I'm going to maple to check whether it's "snowing" >< If it is, there's a special item to open!!! I'm really super excited for it (: I hope it's something that's extremely rare XD
Taaa all ! Lotsa love :D
