If life is nothing but a joke to you.
i got back my results, all except for econs, which would most probably be getting back tmr. im contented with my results, just that i felt that i was rather careless for chem and math, if not i could have done better...
the results made me realise that i actually could do well, with my own effort. and my friend told me this today,'i'm competing with myself, not others', which i find completely true. i'm not competing with others, more of myself. i just want to prove to myself that the past failure wasn't because of my incapability. still, i fail to realise why i had not been doing well last year. everytime someone asks me a question pertaining to the previous year, sometimes i would answer them that i'd forgotten. this is my honest answer. i couldn't rmb much from last year. idk whether its because of the selective recollection that my mind forces itself to go through or its solely due to the fact that i can't recall a thing at all.
i have been running, running and running all this term, in order to get things done within the limited amount of time i have, in order tire myself out to make others happy, to help those that i feel should be helped, because i don't want others to end up like me. the hardship suffered... i just don't want it to happen again, not to myself, not to my friends, not to anyone.
all these time, i've been trying to help you, but you just can't seem to be bothered, either by me or to help yourself. and i am very frustrated. indeed, im very pissed off with you at times. i try to help, but you slight me and don't even trust my attempt to help. you judge too much, and most of the time, not with your heart.
i don't wanna see you at the losing end, and thats all i have to say to you, goodnight.
